banksy's online shop

i’m watching the documentary with banksy (Exit Through the gift shop) and i’m flashed with a quote: “he was accidentally focusing on something”. The video is about a guy who got crazy filming everything and one day found a “passion” or well, some one to follow.

That’s the same concept behind the whole “ecole de la respiration” of Itsuo Tsuda when he wrote “le non-faire”. That means “not doing” when obviously you are always doing something, since you breath and you live. But your brain thinks differently, your brain when it’s getting bored thinks it’s not doing anything. That’s the beginning.

Now it’s a sunny day here in Italy and got to meet a friend, or doing a business, i don’t know the limits yet. But i’m happy.

Update: it has probably been a while since i wrote something because of the instinct. That kind of blogging died probably when i understood that i could make money and/or living simply by thinking a little more before hitting “publish”. Anyway it’s night, i’m back from my sunny day and i finished watching banksy’s documentary. Well, my favorite doc this year is “The Yes Men Fix the world”, banksy is second. and he’s got a nice sense of humor. Strange how he seems so shy with his identity and he lets us see his hands (that tell a lot about his inner behavior) and well, all that embarrassed people speaking about the videomaker gone crazy are pretty interesting. Anyway he just seems to love making money, and since he succeeds well, that’s a big fuck you in the face of all the art enthusiasts around. Bad ending art lovers, sorry. I don’t understand when they seem to change their idea about the videomaker, when he wants to play their game probably. It all became a little “forged” and “forced”, the whole building of good sentiments and true passion leading the actions of the enlighten guy… fells.

Anyway, i don’t know if banksy was really searching for a friend and if it’s all about such a primordial need, or if it’s about the eternal fight between money and true feelings. They got to publish something understandable and something you can speak about, so they probably failed at banksy’s game of making everyone speechless. On the video you have to tell a story, if there is no story, everything is true but not understandable, like the first “life remote control” movie. If you get to understand it, it’s probably crap, that’s what “true” artists seem to say. Anyway people says when someone is an artist, like the market thing.

if banksy really  wanted a new friend, all he probably got has been a business partnership and maybe some ideas for his online shop.

feelings are stronger than you think.

Like many others I’m now curious of why I’m spending most of my online time on social networks. Except for what I’m reading in the FeedReader, I’m experiencing a decrease of the quality of my online time. Maybe people is putting all their energy on those super boring Facebook statuses, they are so easy to comment with those useless likes or comments. My trusted friends are living their lives far from me and their need to post those elaborate and meaningful blog posts that I loved seems now ended.

Also casual online gaming is stealing a lot of my time. Plus finally I managed to have a private life and when I’m online I try to get only some stats about current projects, read+answer to emails and a lot of feedreading for my personal interests. All I need from an internet connection is now in my cellphone and I try to focus on work while on the PC.

I’m not happy with my productivity but I’m not in the need for a job so I keep alive only the minimum of my will to focus on my customer’s needs during online consulting sessions.

My offline world now speaks about what is online, the TV news are now mostly empty and distant stuff. I try to keep updated with my few real life friends, but it’s hard to meet in some physical places.

Since I completely detached from my work aspirations, 2 years ago I started focusing on how to achieve a personal life. Now that I’m having some rewarding time with my loving girlfriend, I’m digging in my experience to take out something interesting for my work future.

I know how to be a guide for myself during hard times of sacrifice, and that sacrifice now is invisible.

I’m also getting more and more philosophical during my work-time instead of being technical as I would like to be. Working on this side of the search engines is a matter of trust and it’s more about believing than knowledge.

Another fact about my personal life is that I left much of my need for work satisfaction behind while trying to get in touch with lost parts of my family, and my family is big now, and full of memories about each one of my relatives. While I’m still losing contact with a big part of my family, my online friendships are the same and very rewarding for the latest bunch of years (they are still M., Adam and Alessandro the undead) despite of that useless time on social websites.

1. nothing better to do in real life + hope to get a better life
2. knowledge
3. contact with far and cool people
4. work
5. casual videogaming and multiplayer shooters
6. music: discover and download
7. write and publish my stuff for anonymous people that rarely replies
8. search for another dream job + dream girl + dream game
9. lol, porn, forum short talk
10. buy stuff

As you can see, there is something wrong. What’s your top 10?

1. understand context, know my task.
2. do it and publish
3. think how could i do it faster/better/stronger
4. find new tasks

these things are useless without personal presence.

To be a nice person, a light way of thinking is needed: the perpetuous “I dont care how things are going” being easy like mood. The LOL is not enough to be a friend, and the “I care about you” is not enough to act as a family member.

So I try to remove my personal presence in contexts where it’s not really needed. I bring myself from a company to another, I switch homes as easily as to choose a restaurant for dinner.

At the same time I’m becoming a perfect customer. I dont spend time in personal rants about errors in products I buy, only if they ask for feedback I give it. I simply do the possible to get what I pay for, and when it’s not possible I think which kind of effort is necessary to switch to another product, and if it’s convenient, switch.

While I’m growing the need for a time management tool,  The RRR* has just reopened in the middle of Sardinia, get in touch to book a free vacation (until June 30th). I just relocated because I was missing my family and now… I relocated to understand what I was missing.

Too bad relocating doesn’t give anything to find the bravery to desire what I really need.

Most of the times I just feel wrong, like a man in the middle of a tornado. I just hang on and resist and hope of not being a bad person while surviving.