Loneliness You! Rascal

my wonder for abandoned places and industrial deserts is at a tipping point. Now that in America they have a second Torino, (they call it “detroit in a cool documentary” ) finally the hipsters can go inside modern ruins and paint everything like a child would paint his father’s work serious desk.

My father sometimes complains his generation did not left us a nice world to live, but I think that anyone can decide how to spend his time, building, painting or watching tv instead.

Just in front of my house there is a nice park, with an abandoned building just in the center. It’s pretty big, it used to be an hotel. Just like my past life, i see it every time i go to the station, and i feel what they call “interior landscapes“.

Images of a great past, that now fells in ruins it’s not just industrial archeology, the teacher told me also great emperors had a mythological vision of their roots, to justify a despicable present, mostly.

i feel like a bored Ulysses with the urgent need for new adventures. too bad the island is far far away.

targets > love + work > you lose

As I grow professionally I feel a direct personal loss of values. Working I learn to think in a task conclusion oriented mode: I cannot do the same with my friend(s) or family.

  1. understand context, know my task.
  2. do it and publish
  3. think how could i do it faster/better/stronger
  4. find new tasks

these things are useless without personal presence.

To be a nice person, a light way of thinking is needed: the perpetuous “I dont care how things are going” being easy like mood. The LOL is not enough to be a friend, and the “I care about you” is not enough to act as a family member.

So I try to remove my personal presence in contexts where it’s not really needed. I bring myself from a company to another, I switch homes as easily as to choose a restaurant for dinner.

At the same time I’m becoming a perfect customer. I dont spend time in personal rants about errors in products I buy, only if they ask for feedback I give it. I simply do the possible to get what I pay for, and when it’s not possible I think which kind of effort is necessary to switch to another product, and if it’s convenient, switch.

While I’m growing the need for a time management tool,  The RRR* has just reopened in the middle of Sardinia, get in touch to book a free vacation (until June 30th). I just relocated because I was missing my family and now… I relocated to understand what I was missing.

Too bad relocating doesn’t give anything to find the bravery to desire what I really need.

Most of the times I just feel wrong, like a man in the middle of a tornado. I just hang on and resist and hope of not being a bad person while surviving.